It's never too late to come back to something you love. Something that fills you with passion and inspiration. Something that serves as a necessary and welcome distraction.
This space has been all of that for me in the past. And I'm hopeful it will serve those same purposes, and maybe many more in the future.
I've been gone for a while, and in that time my life has drastically changed.
I've been through the absolute toughest period of my entire life and marriage to date. We came out on the other side, and it was worth it. We're happier, healthier, and more in tune with what it means to be a fully invested spouse and partner. We understand one another better. We've grown up, and it feels good.
I knocked some things off the bucket list, including jumping out of an airplane. I'd do it again, but not for a long time.
I tried yoga, and it's amazing. I'll do it again, hopefully soon.
My husband has lost over 75 pounds since the beginning of February. I feel an immense pride for the hard work he has done, both physically and emotionally, to become his best self. It hasn't been easy, and while at times he has struggled, he has never given up. I've gained so much respect for him in the past 9 months, and I can't even begin to describe the signifiance of that feeling.
I've done a lot of personal work, and I'm at a place where I feel like I finally understand who I am, and how I got here. I'm not happy about it all, but insight isn't about being happy necessarily--its a tool--one I don't ever plan to take for granted.
We rehomed one of our sweet setters-Jayden. He is now in a loving household that can accomodate his jubilant barking and jumping around. While he is missed, we know it was the right decision for both him and us. River is like a new dog now that she's an only child again, and we have been able to really enjoy her again.
I have barely knit a stitch in over a year. Lots of starting and stopping (like, starting 4 rows, stopping for 3-4 months, repeat). However, as the year churns on and we near autumn once again, I feel the mojo may return. I certainly have good reason.
We are expecting. We received the news (with two very faint pink lines) the day after our 7 year wedding anniversary. It was a planned pregnancy, and we are very excited. A baby boy will be joining our family in January, and it can't get here fast enough for either of us.
Knowing that three months of maternity leave is in my near future, I've decided to try to come back to the blog. We still cook a lot, and go to the mountains, and of course very soon we'll have something very new and special to focus on. I don't know what that means for this space, other than I think I'm in a place where I really want to share all of it again. I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life, and I want to shout it from the virtual rooftops, and this is my platform.
I don't know if anyone out there is still reading. If you are, thanks for sticking with me. If you're new to this space, welcome. Many exciting adventures lie ahead.